Realized that I was ugly? Falling more into depression?

You know the whole mirror vs camera thing? Well basically our brains make us look good in the mirror because we're used to it but we look ugly on camera because it's how you really look. Im a 15 year old girl, When I use the front camera on my iPhone, I can never get used to it. I find my real image so disgusting, my face is bigger and I have wrinkles from my cheeks being round, my hair is also short and choppy, but the mirror made it look "presentable".

After this, I started to overthink and think about all the guys I approached some were cold but the nice ones just rejected me respectfully. I also thought about the people who thought that I was ugly and all the girls in my school, this whole time I thought I was average or pretty because my family members tell me to do modeling when in reality on a scale im a 3 to people in my everyday life.

I also don't want to talk to my mom about this, I had problems before but she is just going to say something cliche and mothers are sopose to think their children are good looking anyway. I want to get plastic surgery in the future but it will be expensive. I also want to show my picture for tips on how to improve my apperance but I don't want it on the open web, if you have some type of messenger app like Skype than I will contact you on there, which would be really helpful!

Please help.

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